A Corny Love Poem

love

some say it is petty
others say its a waste
i say its amazing
it puts a glow in my face
i am in love
that is a fact
where our love grows
other loves lack
this is our love

Hey, I know Anxiety, I Added Her On Facebook!

         anx·i·e·ty

          aNGˈzī-itē/

      noun

1. 1.

   a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.

   "he felt a surge of anxiety"

                 Anxiety. We have all heard the term, and perhaps even experienced it for ourselves. It can break even the strongest. Fear, nerves, anxiety, panic, and stress. My biggest enemies. Multiple things cause this. First, the fear that I am turning 18 years old with out a solid plan. I have no job, no car, and I have yet to re-apply for my social security. I seem to be at a stand still. 

                   Second, the nervousness of money. Life is just too expensive these days. Between cars, gas, apartments, food, clothes, and everything else, how will I survive?

                    And Third, I fear that i am screwing up. The things I want for myself (to open a tattoo shop, devote myself to my band) What if I am making all the wrong choices? What if I am left with half a life?

                  Anxiety can be paralyzing, taking control of you and sucking you into this heart palpitating mess of tears and, in some cases, alcohol. It is debilitating, it can make you go from a warrior, to a little child curled up in the fetal position and rocking. It can make women devour pints of chocolate ice cream, it can make teens hide in their rooms, and it can make children scared to go outside. It is a monster.

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack: Dancing Dead (A7X)

Love (And Other illegal Substances)

Guess What Mental Patients!

               
         My boyfriend said he loves me! AHHHH!!!!!! I'm about to burst! I have been too chicken to tell him how I feel about him, and finally I told him. Of course I said it in french, and then I had to translate it (that's embarrassing).... But still! I am so happy, because I was so scared to be the first one to say it, (What if he said no?) but finally I summoned the balls to say it, and he said he loved me back! I'm so friggin' happy right now! * squeal*

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack: Morticians Daughter (Black Veil Brides) (Our Song)

Happy Days!

So Mental Patients!!!

           Today went very well. Other than the fact that my poor Syko (my boyfriends nickname) was freezing like crazy, and I ended up giving him my jacket (I told you, I'm a warrior, I don't need a jacket. Besides, he is skinnier than me, less fat to keep him warm.. Always a plus side to being plus size, right?)
         So, our date was fun. We went to get coffee, and then hung out in the cold when the lady at DnD told us that we weren't able to stay longer... I hate that lady.. :P
         He isn't the mushy gushy type, so I know when he told me that I'm the only person that he thinks about, that is pretty big. i don't wanna read into it too much, but I get tingly feelings when I try to decipher what he says. I would say I'm pretty fluent in guy, being the only girl at the boy table at lunch as a kid. I know when a guy is embarrassed to say he likes a girl... More than he is willing to admit.
         Well, I also got my Ipod Touch today, so this means that I now have a better way to listen to music, and a better alarm clock. YAY!
        Ok, I should go. Tune in next time!

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack: Halloween (King Diamond)

Warmness on the Soul

Mental Patients!!!!

          Well, going on my first date with my boyfriend! We've been dating for a while, but still hadn't gone on a legitimate date. We're going to the park! (Que the girly "Awwwwwwwwwhh") I mean, I have to take 2 buses to get there, and then back again, but I would say it is VERY worth it. Usually I would ask the guy to pick me up, however, since I'm in a *ehem * "Program"  (i.e. a type of group home)       they would not let my boyfriend simply pick me up. They say "If you happen to 'run into him' at the park, we can't do anything about that, but he can't pick you up." Sounds cool in theory, except what if my bus is late,what if he is lost? I know Woonsocket (where the park is) as well as any, but he is not even from Rhode Island! I hope I get there on time..
           On to the topic of my boyfriend. I met him outside my Aunts house. Now, before your creeper alerts go off, he lives with his dad next door to my aunt. So no, he is not a stalker. Just a REALLY cute boy next-door. I was outside playing my guitar (and horribly sucking at it, might I add), and he was outside just hanging out. I knew my guitar was out of tune, so I asked him if he knew how to tune a guitar. He said yes, and then he did. He isn't much of a talker, so there was sort of an awkward silence. Then I went inthe house.
           Doesn't sound very romantic, I know. But then, like a month later, I was hanging out with his sister, and I heard this guitar riff emanate through out the house. I didn't even know she had a brother, so yeah. I asked her where that riff (it was a Metallica song, btw, if my memory is correct) was coming from, and she said her brother. I was like, YOU have a brother?! And so she took me to meet  him. From there we still weren't quite so romantic, we talked, and then the topic of starting a band came up. So for a while we were only band mates, then friends. And then, one fateful day, I summoned the nerve to write him a letter telling him my true feelings for him. Thus making us boyfriend and girlfriend, because, turns out, he feels the same. Which brings us to today.
          Well, now that I have written a novel about my boyfriend (usually I write shorter posts, if you haven't noticed) , I shall go get ready. Make up and hair time!!!

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack of the day: Gunslinger (A7x) 

P.s. I didn't realize how many love inspired songs Avenged Sevenfold (A7x, incase you didn't know) has! Definitely makes finding the perfect song for me and my boyfriend easier. He is as much of a metal head, if not more, as me. 

The Big "ONE ZERO ZERO"!!!

Oh My Little Mental Patients!

                It seems that I have officially gotten 100 views.  While this may sound small to you, this sounds pretty big to me. This means that 100 people were bored enough to click on my blog, 100 people were crazy enough to check me out, and 100 people were AWESOME enough to read! This pleases me to no end, and I hope it continues! I love blogging, and having people read my stuff gives me little flutterflies (or maybe its just because I'm crazy... Who will ever know?)

           Just wanted to say how happy this makes me, and I hope to soon be saying I have 1,000 views. 

Thanks! Until next time!

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack: Mercedes Benz (Janis Joplin)

I Am A Warrior!

What's good, Mental Patients?

                 I just walked from Broadway, prov, to Thayer street..... I'm not sure if you know this, but that is supposed to be a 40 minute walk. Doesn't sound like much, except the fact that a 38 minute walk in the blistering cold can take WAY longer than just 38 minutes. Google maps lies. They told me it would only take 38 minutes. It took me roughly an hour and a half. CRAZINESS!!! I am so tired, and so sore, absolutely unhappy in almost every way. So now I am at home, resting with my heating pad and motrin, planning yet ANOTHER adventure. Only this time I am taking the bus. No more "Hey, lets go for a walk!" bullshit. Just saying, never again. But enough of my pain, I did get a tad lucky while on my expedition. I filled out 10 job applications, Hope someone says they think I'm good enough!
              Well, with that, folks, it is time to bid thee adieu. Until next time!

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack: Black Hole Sun (Soundgarden)

The Shortest Post Known To Man!

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Hey Mental Patients!

              Well,this is going to be a short post, I just want to say that I am sad because i had to cancel my plans for tomorrow. Now my only plans are to go to the gym, and job search on Thayer St. (providence, RI)
               Wish me well at the gym!

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack:  Wish you were here (Avril Lavigne)

Canada, Please Take "The Biebs" Back!

Mental Patients!!

            Ok, the Supernatural v.s. Justin Bieber memes on tumbler are killing me! They are SO funny! I can't stop laughing! I agree, Justin Bieber is ridiculous. Honestly though, I don't think he can be deported just for this. * pouty face*
             However, I am glad that he is in trouble. But, this poses and issue: children look up to this schmuck. And little girls are posting #neverleavingjustin and #legend #hero #justinbieber ......... This smells like trouble. I wish kids could see that even stars can be idiots. Major. Idiots. I would rather he just not act up. Its not worth the children seeing him act this way, even if I want him deported. I have little cousins and family members who adore the ground his stupid shoes walk upon. i wish he could just quietly resign and leave. Don't do drugs and shit when kids look up to you * cough* Lindsey Lohan *cough*
           Ok, enough of this rant, I'mgonna get back to tumblr. just thought I would share my feelings on this matter.

My tumblr: www.icanandwillbringthenoise.tumblr.com/

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack of the Night: Awake (Godsmack)

LMAO, I can't believe I'm arrested!!!................ wait, shit. I'm arrested?

This is just grotesque.... Seriously?!!!?! He's even SMILING IN HIS MUGSHOT! SMH.....

Buses, and Other Monstrosities.

Hey Mental Patients,

                                         Do you hate the bus too? I certainly do! 

        So here's the scene: I'm trying to set up a hang out session with one of my friends, and low and behold, the bus doesn't want to take me all the way there! BUT! It suggests i take a taxi... *face palm* I can't walk the rest of the way, and I have no money for a taxi, so now what? Do i ask one of my non-existent friends to drive me the rest of the way? (In case you didn't get that from the prev. sentence, I have no friends kind enough to do this, or friends who CAN do this) So now I'm trapped in this hole of "should I even go through with this?" with no way out. See,the bus is nice in theory. Saves gas, money, and the atmosphere. BUT, it comes with a price. I like the bus when it can get me from point A to point B with minimal walking. I guess some of you are thinking: "what is so important that you would subject yourself to this?" or maybe "Get a job and car, you damn slob!" or, most likely, " Do I look like i give a crap?".

        Tell ya what, comment on this post with your worst bus experiences, or most embarrassing, if your worst is too "worse". 

                                                       Tune in next time!

-Dani Asylum

                   Soundtrack of the Night: Josey (Hey Monday)

Oh the HORRORS of Job Hunting!!!!! (And other scary stories)

Calling All Mental Patients!

                 I am having some difficulty in the job searching arena.... In other words, I can't find a job. No one seems to want to hire a kid with little to no experience. The problem with this,however, is that how do you get experience if you don't get a job? Its a paradox! And I have no clue how to end this vicious cycle of inexperience! I have had volunteer jobs, but the places I apply to don't seem to care too much that I volunteered at a Cat Shelter, or that I worked at an art studio. It seems that every application I send in is disregarded as soon as they take a look at my age. I'm 17 years old, not 7! Just because I'm 17 years old does not mean I am incompetent. I am a harder worker than some adults! I know adults who don't even want to job hunt, they are too lazy to go online and go to a job hunting website! So to be judged on my lack of experience and my age is appalling! When will someone be willing to give a kid a chance? My 18th birthday is no longer just "slowly creeping up", it is coming at the speed of light! I find the aspect of turning 18 without a job horrifying and absolutely NOT an option! So how do I fix this?! No, how do WE fix this. This affects more than just me, I am sure sure of this. I have friends who can't find a job due to the same issues. What is wrong with this world? I don't think the economy is SO bad that a few teens can't be hired! I think kids are important to hire, its life skills! How do kids learn to grow up if they aren't given "Grown up" responsibilities! Its mind blowing!
                   Alright, that's my bit for the day. If anyone else feels the same, post a comment!

-Dani Asylum

Soundtrack of the Night: Fur Cue (Seether)

Here's Dani!!! *Que the Jack Nicholson face*

Hey Mental Patients!

                Well, I'm Back. Hope you guys are enjoying this blog thus far. Well, what should I talk about now? I guess I should talk about things that I care deeply about.
                 Last night I was on the phone with my grandfather (who happens to be a homophobic racist.... I swear I'm nothing like that) and we came upon the topic of sexuality. Yes, the big S.O. That convo didn't go very well..... To put it lightly. I informed him(finally) that I am in fact Bisexual.... He told me to go see a shrink and join a church.
                   At first I was taken aback, and I even hung up on him. But then I got to thinking.... If my papa,who loves me SO much, reacted so harshly to my S.O., then what does that say about society? Are we really as accepted as we claim? Are we lying to each other to give us a false sense of calm? What is the true meaning of gay pride day? I noticed one day that an openly lesbian couple walking down the street, happy as could be, were given looks of contempt. How do we stop this? CAN we stop this? This just doesn't seem right to me. What do you think?
                     Well, enough with the ramblings of a psycho. I'm gonna turn in for the night. Tune in next time!

-Dani Asylum

              Soundtrack for the night: Becoming the Bull (Atreyu)

P.S. Just found out today that young Ozzy Osbourne (yes, thats him as a teen) looks a lot like my boyfriend..... Is this a sign?! :3 <3 <3 <3

Welcome to the Asylum!

Hello mental patients!

                Well, this is my first post, what do you think of the site?! Pretty cool, yeah?
Well, let me start by introducing myself. My name is Dani Asylum, I am 17 years old (soon to be 18 in march!) and I LOVE music! Music is my life. No, its my soul. It makes me who I am, in every way. Tell me if you feel that way as well (post a comment!)
                Other than music, I also love food, clothes, makeup, and reading. I cook a lot of foreign food, like Korean food, Indian food, and other Asia/middle east food. As for clothes, I LOVE going to salvation army and seeing what I can do. I love makeup as well, and I even do my friends makeup. I also do nails, and hair :P
                  My biggest passion growing up was reading. I am still in love with books, and I am currently reading The Lord of the Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien (idk why I put the author, everyone knows who wrote Lord of the Rings!)
                   Other things I love are: My band, my cats, and my gauges!
  Well, I know this was short, but I will report back soon! Hope you stay tuned for next time!!! 
               <3 <3 <3
- Dani Asylum
   Soundtrack of the night: Candy Land (Blood on the Dance Floor)